understand my ideology

WE COULD NEVER HELP EVERYONE EVERYWHERE

BUT

WE COULD ALWAYS HELP SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE

ALWAYS,

always...

how many out there truly understand my words? i sense none. oh well. words are just words, a hard way to express a feeling. a hard way to sell believes, a hard way to make others understand. no offense. not you. but hey, this is me. in my believes, you can never know rather we made others understand the way we did. only believe. and trust. :)

a wordS before i die ;)

last week ,

damn,

a lot happenned....

makin hari, makin dekat ngn spm, makin byk ujian yang Allah bagi.

kawan aku sorang, ayah die bankrap pulak time time camni, company kne tutup, balek rumah die je kne marah. hmm.

SITI NOOR FARAHIN AB RAHIM

, ayah die meninggal, colon cancer yang tibe, terkne kt liver, so, thts the cause.Alfatihah.

ME?

well, last friday, i had an accident, jebak moto for the 1st time. it wasnt something major, but theres somthing that i kept thinking about . hmm, if before, i escaped death once, and now again, i dont know if there is going to be a third time. and for that, it made me realize. when people just died suddenly, they dont have the time to actually say something to everyone, to say goodbyes, and sorry.so, if today was my last day, heres something that i must say :)

firstly, i would like to say sorry to everyone, regardless of whom, regardless of where i met you, everyone. eventhough things havent been easy between us, i forgive you, ONLY, if you forgive me,hehe, if i ever owe you anithing that requires pay back, pls refer to my family.

and dear family, i may not be the best person in the center of the family,but i hope you can all understand what ive been through, ask umi, she'd know. i was not the best, even though i try to be, and peoples just keep on disagree. but im guessing that is just it. im no more :)

to those who ever had grudge on me on everything, those who took me for granted, those whom just never seem to get it right with me. just to let you know, i hope that now you are happy. and forever will. still, i have nothing against you. except the self esteem of yourself :) but on top of all,

for those of you who are just there , there for me, there to even just share a single moment to everything. note that i want to say a humble bow with a thank you :) a thankyou for everything that i hope is enough just to pay back. i can never pay them back with just me. and i would never be me if it wasnt for you. ALL of you,

a little advice from me, appreciate everything you have. appreciate them, think optimistic in everything, and there you will see the silver lining. the life you will live is still long. for that. dont waste it, dont savage it, dont betray it :) its a once in a life time when you can actually see you, being able to live your life to the fullest. to cut it short, its like an absolute ecstasy just to know you did all ok. just smile at evrything, and bring smiles to others. never forget, that you dont live in this world alone, and you can never do so. this makes you just the person who needs other, pls realize this fact. and make some changes dad. im specificating this to you. and others as well.

nobody can plan their death. and a perfect one is only for lucky ones i guess?

so, im just planning mine, a stepping stone of preparation.

the only thing i hope is that i may be remembered, or just, be settled the proper way.

thankyou.. may God bless you all.

well, im guessing thats it.

thank you for all of your time . thankyou. :)

too much nonsense ive told, lets talk about education this time :)

bile trial dah habis, semua tanya result. kau brapa. aku siket je, kau pulak berapa. aku boleh la, eh, aku terok doe. dan lain lain. ok, memandangkan tak ramai yang bace blog aku ni, (for thats the main reason aku buat blog ini , its like a diary,:) aku nk ckp yang result trial aku, adalah

8A3A-.eventhough takde A+, still, alhamdulillah.

tapi, ni tak bermakne ape yg aku buat ni cukop baek. i just barely dapat mcmtu, rezeki hopefully, and not bala. orang ckp, aku dah tak payah belajar dah, dah konfem dapat biasiswa dah, dah konfem dpt masok U dah, dah konfem mase depan cerah la ape la.

Tp aku igt lg ape cgu fizik aku, Pn Siti Sabariah, cakap dkt aku. fyi, die cgu 1st yg tau aku dpt straight A.
die ckp " ali, tahniah sbb dapat sume A, tapi kamu jgn takbur atau riak. bile kawan ckp itu ini, kamu istighfar je la. agp la ini sebagai ujian. jadikan ni sebagai batu loncatan, kamu cakap kat mak ayah kamu, terima kasih sbb byk doakan kamu, dan kamu msti igt, jalan kamu lps ni jauh

lg. walaupun kamu byk belajar, tp Tuhan jgn lupe. jangan nak main sgt, dah la, t

ak elok saya ckp byk sgt, kamu dah besa dan pandai dah nak paham ape yg saye ckp"

almost evrytime after fizik(sebelum tuka kelas) die akn ckp kt aku mcmtu . im thankful, and than you, its like a weekly motivation , the drug i need to boost my study. when others just spoil it -.-

tp kan, cube tgk jadual kt atas tu.itu list sbp yg dpt top dkt mesie ni, and kalau tgk, STF atas sekali. yahh, mane tak nye, kawan kawan aku yg dkt situ dulu pon sume bijak bestari :) sume flying colours.

and rakan rakan lain di SEMESTA(sekolahmenengahsainstengkuabdullah), KISAS, SABDA, SDAR, SSP(cyberjaya) and SMSSP, SBPI gombak, SBPI rawang, dan lain lain, kalian menjadikan diri ini resah seribu bahasa, sedar akan kekurangan yang perlu dibaiki. walaupun org ckp, skola sbp dah disediekan dgn mcm2 kemudahan tok belajar berbanding skola bese, im not gonna put that as something that dooms my future. dan Dato Daud, terima kasih sebab bagi saya motivasi di saat saya memerlukannya. kadang kadang betul jugak kata pn rosliyah tu, saingan kite adalah mereka di luar sekolah. dan pencapaian kt dlm sekolah tak bermakne itu adalah nilaian sebenar. saingan dgn budak spm dah mcm tu, tak masuk mrsm lg, worst, sekolah harian biasa. they hold the diamonds in the glass.

a long way to go, and harder roads are to be taken, choices need to be made. as i grow, i canno longer rely on others more than i rely on myself. dlm aku tgah update blog ni, online fb, others tgah belajar, striving, survival to the fittest.

i need to start my change, kan bes kalau ade orang yang paham ape yg aku phm, alangkah baeknya :(

less than a month till spm, less than 2 month of schoolhood. surely gonna miss it, already missing it, lets make the change together shall we?? its still not too late :)

4abubakar2009,5abubakar2010 :)

nampak gamba atas ni? haa. ni bkn gamba aku. ni gmba abg aku. and skate die yg dah patah, ape nii ali?? (pls continue reading:)

oke, trial baru sahaja abes, and now, dah mule pecutan, so aku pun cepat cepat la nk update gk blog ni, taknak bia die berhabuk banyak banyak. hehe. and yah, mesti ade yang akan tanye, result kau brape ali? mesti gempak kan? bla bla bla.

alhamdulillah. aku rase result aku oke. tapi bukan comfort zone. sbb trial ni byk sgt talian hayat. arab yang tak penah penah aku dapat A dari sekolah rendah, now dah dpt. huhu. alhamdulillah. tapi aku risau. spm mana ada talian hayat. this time , i guess ill learn things, the hard way, hopefully.

unfotunately, something happenned to me. after 1st week trial, secara rasminya, ali husaini TELAH BERMULA UNTUK MAIN SKATE!!!hahaha. walaupun sblm tu aku ada jugak try ride ride kt dlm rumah and luar rumah, tp skrg, aku akan pegi skatepark kat 13 tu, like, pagi kol 3 , 4 , or lps subuh. kalau rajin, ptg pon pegi like before maghrib maybe.till now, skrg ni aku dah boleh la ride siket siket, blaja nk pump gune bearing murah, revert, ollie, and pop shuve it. now aku fokus nk perfecting these tricks. but before that. i would love to learn how to drop in a pool and ride in it freely. hee.huhu. and yah. aku mule skate time trial, and ramai bising. ramai marah. ramai suro aku jgn skate.

sume orang tau, nak main skate ni bukan nye sehari due. takes years maybe. bak kate abg aku. *its not a one day effort* kot. heh. so, skrg dah masuk minggu ke empat aku skate. and yah, dah ade la sakit sana sakit sini, darah sana darah sini. nk skate msti la ade price die :)oke, so, nk tau nape aku skate??

well,

bg aku, bile aku main skate ni, mmg la bes obviously,not that im saying its a guys game or wut, even gurls like it too kn wazee? haha. but hey, it made me realize something. kau nk skate, nk taknak, kau kene blajar care susah. mana ada kau boleh nk suro kau coach. tatau la en, tp stakat ni, aku tak penah la nmpak lg. and tht made me realize that it is better to learn everything that way. no shortcuts, just efforts and extra efforts. dalam kata lain, kalau kau nmpak orang tu dah pro, kau tau, how much hardness he paid, and the pain he faced just to be able to do tricks. and i must go through the same thing for the same result :)

and also, kalau nk tau, everyone who skates has their own background. tp bile kt skate park, hey, we're all the same. doing the one thing, sharing the one place. orang nak gune pool, kite bagi, kite share. kite nk gune, orang bagi laluan. and backwise. and yeah, tak sume dah pandai main. so, kalau nmpak orang baru nk berjinak ngn skate, mane ade boo boo. tak tau, kite ajar. even though org tu tak knl. and when you fall, you get up, and yeah, orang akn concern. even for strangers. , seriusly dude. see, skating isnt tht bad. its like, the feeling when someone comes to you and askes for a lighter to like a smoke(but im not a smoker. take this note seriously ) and you get to talk and know that person when they smoke together.

but overall, skating is about practice and practice and practice, despite the risks are very much vulnerable . but hey. never give up, thats what i learnt from skating :)

HAHA. tp aku tau. org mesti ckp, *lepas spm nnt kau sambung la* heee. ntah la kawan, aku just main biasa biasa je. bukan extreme pon. hanya sebagai exercise sahaja :) oke?

tp, nk tanye jugak la.

SHOULD I OR SHOULDNT I STOP SKATING?

hmm,

ur thoughts?

sharing is caring?

sometimes people say, "ali, you've got to tell people your problem"

heh. but the world , i cant say its cruel. maybe its just the way it is rather than the way it should of been. Too much had been done. every time i tried to tell the true complexion of something, it gets worst.not that im saying im always right. but it makes them know that things aren't that simple. and things are absolutely not as how they thought.and thus ,leading to a bigger misunderstanding. forcing myself to learn. that i should never share something. its better for me to keep it inside. and admitting im wrong even though its not, even though i haven't tell the truth about it. ending up for me to swallow the pain and smiling for it . accepting all the blames, true or false. when its inside. nothing differs it. oh well. thts the world trying to teach me to be stronger and stronger :)

(: BERTERABUR :)

terus terang...
tiada tersurat...
tiada tersirat...

:)

baru balek dr masjid negeri .

hmm. dah lame tak menulis macam ni. byk sgt nk cite. smpai mase je nk tuleh. abes sume idea.

tp yg pasti, skrg ni. macam macam dah jadi. semua tak macam dulu. sume dah ada hala tuju masing masing. once, i had great time, great moments to cherish. tp skrg. adehh. di bawa arus masa. orang orang yg aku kenal skrg dah tak same mcm dulu. kalo dulu kite boleh lepak sama sama, gelak sama sama,. sekarang, sume dah ade agenda masing masing. tp bile kite cntact die. die bleh plak ckp, aku yg kerek sbb lame tak cntact. omg, malas la nk gado. tp nk wat macam mane. as time flies, people grow. and changes are expected to occcur in them, only GOD knows how, what and why. and kau boleh expect to see no visible expression on me. sbb aku taknak make evrything personal. taknal campur adukkan masalah aku ngn kau ngn orang lain. :)

oleh itu, di kesempatan ini,
saya ,
ALI HUSAINI BIN ADZMI,
ingin mengucapkan
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,
ikhlas dari hati,
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN,
kepada semua,
tak kire, baru kenal, dah lame kenal,
terlupe atau hampir lupe.
saya bkannye sempurna untuk menjadi perfect di mata semua orang,
tapi saya harap, saya di tegur andai tersilap,
dibetulkan bila tersalah,
di nasihat untuk membuka langkah :)

khusus untuk trial yg akan datang, saya berhajat untuk mengundurkan diri dari internet. insyaAllah, kalau la mampu, same same la kite yeh? hehe

kalo ada tak puas hati apa apa, sile jumpe saye, atau bagitau saya. TQ :)

let my hands dance :)

i could say,
what a day ,
or just,
i hate today.

being optimistic,
it never hurts,
being sarcastic,
that's gonna struck a nerve.

im no poet to describe the world as it is,
but i have my own opinion,
with whom i share this world with.
as of yesterday,
ive learnt something,
rather than nothing.

friends make our world go round
not just square or triangle that has to much bound.
when you take them for granted,
you'll see how you can be granted with such hatred
unless you linger upon the strings of a love ones,
then you will live to tell the tale.
A tale of stupidity rising beyond the wise intelligency,
but you are not Enstien,
you are not stephen hawking.
then ill ask you a question.
what is the true treasure of your complexion?

and NOT to be forgotten,
always in my heart,
a leader coaches rather than orders,
motivate ,
and
tolerate,
rather than cursing for our imperfections.
but hey,
im not perfect for you,
guess you are just not perfect anyone then :)
a brain without a heart,
is like a you. with only you :)