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glistering my views on my fellow bloggers whom, once were all together with me throughout this journey of epic writings and sharing. And now, most of the writings are virtually unavailable due to further unacquainted commitment. though some have been known to have less time for the hands and minds to sync and marvelously, and effortlessly producing something worth reading.works, marriage. and perhaps even studying (hopefully), seems to be a legit reason of so. but nevertheless, i hope that i may continue doing what i am, and still manage to squeeze some time for all of this. (AMIINNN~)
So far. here i am. clinical years. i cant comment much on the 4th year of medical school, yet. But hey, 3rd year was a year full of memories of which in my opinion is worth sharing, and worth of reading back for myself especially. listing it would be easier i think :D
1. EXTRA CURRICULAR - I always believed that a great person has a great agenda. and a great agenda is always something that is beyond what is already laid in front of him. pretty sure everyone knows the poem ' the road less traveled by '. And having a year of new responsibility had me placed myself where i never thought id be, and not forgetting, all the peoples i met along the way has shown me the practical approach of the saying. and the downside at this point of which i was able to conclude to myself is that not everything will go as how you planned. YES, not everything works in the real world. you tried so hard in doing something but the world seems to always knock you down just to make you realize , you need to be better. suck in up and move on~
2.CURRICULAR - Obviously learning in the clinical setting is not the same as the past 2 years. nor will it be similar to any practical sessions in other faculty. learning by the means of self urgency. the ultimate form of proper practical learning. at this point i realize, its not how much you know prior, or how well you did in the past years of your life that matters. but how much you put an effort and commit to learn and gain everything that matters. Of course, there are those who settled with just doing average. In the end, the outcome will be the same for everyone. unless you flunked (God forbids) but youll reach the same place , just a bit late. of course, examwise, im willing to say that it is one of the most unfair exam in the world. Some would consider passing is a luck. others might work so had for it but still not pass. as for me. i only hope that passing is the best fate Allah has decided for me.
3. THE FRIENDS - Its quite the sad scene where all the 250 friends who goes to lectures together 2 years ago are now merely faces seen once a week, if youre lucky that is. as how i am eager to talk to each of them, time is always THE one to prevent me from doing so. we all have our own different schedules to follow and places to attend. But i always say to myself, there will be a time after this hecticness ends, that i am able to do so. but never the less, out of sight doesnt mean out of mind, nor do out of prayer.
4. THE LIFE - So it begins. as everyone is getting prep on what they want or have to do in life you start questioning how that statement inflicts on your life. whats it gonna be like for the net five years, or maybe 10 or 20 years from now. along the way what should you dump and on which should you cling and carry on. Others will start questioning too. And unfortunately, some will doubt your action regardless how virtue the intention you prioritize. there will be those who cant digest the fact of why this course is the longest, and why its said to be the toughest. not that im making an excuse for each and every under performance( God forbids) there is. In everything that we do, i realize theres one fact that should be highlighted that hopefully, in a certain way, it may be something to cling on and head towards a better future.
all of our times flies. but to where it flies that differs each and every one of us. and just because you are doing something in your believe, is the right thing, it makes other paths the others took the wrong one. lets leave the judging part to the One and only who can, and leave the efforts to us.
Towards a better and brighter future. InsyaAllah :)