Assalamualaikum , 2013

(2009: gambar 1st day masuk smk harian )

increase in work load

increase in demand for workload. 

but the constant amount of time.

dh bape bulan tak post. rasenye macam nk stop blogging. but i think it will be an utter waste kalau buat cmtu.. so yah. lets make a quick recap between the months i stopped posting and, 2013 :)

so yah. a dull life indead. medicine is a really dull life. haha. books books. cries, books. lectures. sacrifices are essential. dh takde dh masa nk enjoy sgt,.nak bersukan pn ssh. but above all, i met new peoples. heeh. macam ragam macam rupa, yang penting, semuanya hebat hebat. :) deputy dean pnah ckp.. kalau nk jd hebat kne la berdamping dgn org org hebat ... so yah, ill put those words to use.

sedar tak sedar. dh nk dekat final sem 1. although . aku ada lg 9 sem to go. still, rasa mcm nk dpt pace tu ssh je. not complaining. just trying to adapt smoothly :) but never the less. apa yg terjadi, bukan hak kita untuk complain. sbb kita tak tau mana yg terbaik utk kita n yg mana sebenarnye buruk untuk kita. yang pasti, for every good thing that happened, there's a reason, and for every hardship that follows, there's a silver lining :) 

 *Gunakan Hak berfikir sebelum Hak Bersuara* malique.....

ramadhan finale : true story

27th Ramadhan. as to this date , this post is posted. most of us are probably already sooooooo super exited with the coming raya.. but this post , i actually wanna share something, that might make us all be exited about the right thing. and here i am. sharing a few real stories that occurred to me back in ramadhan 2008 . stories that made me think of what am i doing with my times.

*****

masa tu malam 10 terakhir, malam ganjil yang pastinya. aku dkt rumah baubah thani di sabii' , cairo. lps terawih mlm tu. tga lepak lepak di ruang tamu bersama housemate. tibe tibe. sorang kawan ni dpt call dari rumah . rupa rupanya. mak dia call. setelah beberapa minit(dkt setengah jam jugak) die hang up, and then dia cite ape jadi . kawan dia di sekolah dulu(perempuan) baru  je meninggal. tapi ceritanya membuatkan ibu si mati tidak lah sesedih yang disangkakan.

pada malam tersebut. si ibu sedang solat terawih bersama anaknya dirumah. kebiasaannye mereka akan solat 20 rakaat. tetapi pada malam tersebut,si anak tak larat dan menyuruh ibunya solat sendiri sementara dia membaca berehat sebentar dibelakang ibunya. ibunya memberitahu pada mulanya disangkakan anaknya hendak tidur lalu di suruh untuk tidur di atas katil. nk tido tido btul2~~** tetapi anaknya ingin membaca alquran sebentar , untuk menggantikan solat terawih 12 rakaat yg tidak terdaya untuk dilakukan pada mlm tersebut.

maka sedang si ibu solat , kedengaran si arwah sedang membaca alqur'an. sehingga hampir selesai si ibu solat pada rakaat ke 19 katanya si anak mula membaca alquran dengan nada yg perlahan, dan makin perlahan. selesai sahaja 20 rakaat kelihatan si anak telah tertidur di atas dengan quran ditangannya. si ibu teruskan dengan solat witir. selesai sahaja 3 rakaat, si ibu lihat anaknya masih lg tidur seperti tadi. ibunya menyuruh dia tidur di biliknya. namun tidak di jawab. dan apabila cuba digerakkan , maka ketika itulah si ibu tahu si anaknya telah meninggal semasa membaca alquran...

meniggal pada malam ganjil di bulan yg mulia dengan melalukan kebaikan. Masya Allah.

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 tak pasti malam ke berapa. tapi yang pasti masa tu aku dah bosan malam malam. (fyi org arab ni mostly tak tdo malam tp tido lps subuh) jd, lps lepak minum jus dkt kdai, ktorg lepak cc. terasa sangat bosan ( kids, dont try this at home) aku bukak myspace.~~ haha. and then bukak la profile sorg kwn aku ni. bace la komen komen die dgn sorg mamat ni.. kelihatan dia sedang gadoh dgn sorang laki ni. for the most stupidest reason... perempuan, this wasnt the actual conversation. but it was something like this.
laki tu: kau kt mana

mamat tu : aku kt mamak la knpe

laki tu : aku ade benda nk setel

mamat tu : pasal pompuan tu ke..

laki tu : ye ah. kau sukati je buat ape kau nk kn. die tu aku punye

mamat tu : kau langkah mayat aku dulu la

laki tu : kau tgu situ aku dtg skrg kite setel.

the next day,aku pg balek cc nk tgk kesudahan drama ni. mamat tu update status ckp laki tu coward sebab didnt show up. plus laki tu keep calling pagi tu. and then die start balek conversation

laki tu : kau knpe tak angkat call aku

mamat tu: kau pondan kate nk dtg ni nk call je buat ape aku nk jwb.

laki tu : weh ni aku abg die weh. kawan kau tu dah meninggal.

mamat : kau jgn nk buat cite la. tak brani ckp la.

laki tu. btul la, aku bukak die punye myspace sbb kau taknak jwb aku call. mlm ni ktorg buat tahlil kau datang tau. aku tak dpt nk contact sgt kwn kwn die yg lain, kau sorg je yg aku knl skrg ni. sebab tak silap aku semalam die ckp die nk pg jumpe kau sebelum accident tu. kau ajk la kwn2 die yg laen yeh. tq.

aku yg bace ni pn terkejut, last last aku pg tnaye die nk tnye btol ke tak. and die cakap btul...... semoge kite dilindungi daripada mendapat nasib seperti dia.

meniggal ketika bulan yg mulia, tetapi dengan amalan yang sia sia lagi berdosa. Na'uzubillah.

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so thts about it. two different people having their last ramadhan with two different ending. and here we are , still having ourselves the power and will to decide which is we desire. either the one with the good ending that most of us crave for (husnul khatimah). or the one we fear we might end our lives at the times and places  we hope we dont. ive been there. and thankful for that i wasnt the unlucky ones. 

theres still a few days left. lets not waste these precious days with raya preperation. just ask ourselves. 

'apa jadi kalau ni Ramadhan terakhir aku? adakah aku akan menghabiskannya seperti ramadhan ramadhan yang lalu dimana amalan tidak seberapa. atau berusaha untuk menambah amal baik dari ramadhan sebelum ni. let us all take some lessons from the arabs, you can read it from my previous post. ckup lah mereka disekeliling menjadi peringatan .till then. may Allah guide us all :)

highlights of ramadhan di perantauan :)

selamat menyambut ramadhan :)



i have to say. Ramadhan kali ni. agak bes sebab aku tak perlu risau pasal belajar ! and kali ni aku puasa dengan 2 tangan :D yeay. alhamdulillah. still. ni bukan kali pertama aku berpuase tanpe perlu risau byk perkara dunia. sbb aku rasa bg aku. the best ramadhan for me. was back in 2008 :) berpuasa semase umrah dan juga di mesir ..

ok, unlike most people, aku dapat pergi umrah dengan kawan kawan,with a veeeeeeeeeery cheap price. (takpayah bayar penginapan yg bes tu. hehe). so. bg aku. bile pergi dgn kawan kawan ni. kite tak terikat sangat dgn apa apa and senang nak buat apa apa, so yah. aku pergi buat umrah for the 1st time tgk kaabah , well, semua yg dah pergi tau kan perasaan die cmne. dalam hati waktu tu dok pike. selama ni dkt rumah, nk cari kiblat kne ikut matahari. and that was no more. the main point of attraction ada dkt situ. knowing that kalau kita toleh kebelakang, berapa rmai yg sebenarnye mingidam nk berada btul2 dpn kaabah ni ...tp masa baru 1st time umrah tu belum puase lagi. so, malam tu buat la umrah mcm biase. malam tu lps abes umrah, pg dkt kaabah. tawaf. bru sedar. die baru je lps bersihkan kaabah. which means. orang tak ramai. so, cube la nk cium hajar aswad mase tu.tp tak berkesempatan .sebab orang rmai. plus dgn pkai ihram yg senang tertanggal tu. takpela. mission failed. smpat capai je.and wee,... botak :)

30 Sya'aban.

sebelum mendaki ke gua hira . otw ada byk pitstop jual air. and ada peti ais sekali. cmane tah die agkt peti ais smpai atas tu. huhu

 patutnye mase ni semua orang dah bz nk siap siap dengan ramadhan,, tp tour guide nk bawak pergi panjat gua Hira waktu tu. so. pagi tu pg la panjat dgn kwn2 and also, masa tu ada budak budak semasyur :) smpai atas lepak dgn makcik turki. eventhough die takle phm malay/english/arab .. kami borak macam lew phm sume benda.lastly sebelum turun die bg gula gula .and obvioiusly penat kan .. balek tu da tengahari and masa petang tu tertidur bersama rakan rakan. pttnye ptg tu nk pg gua Thur pulak. tp tak sedar. tau tau dah abes terawih . pukul 10 smting kt. so nk buat ape lg. burn dh hari tu. mlm tu kami jln2 beli barang. senang senanye nk bargain dgn org arab ni. cite psl phone die. + ckp arab. knfm takde hal nk dpt barang murah :D

1 ramadhan.
umi ckp dkt airport dulu pkai la beberapa pn, tp mesti buat. bagi org berbuke. and kalau tgkkan. org arab ni suke minum air gas. so ape lg. bg la byk2 dkt dorg :) yg takleh bela tu org memilih -,- urhh.~ anyways. masa tu berbuke dgn org mesir. die bg mkn mknn die. sedap sgt :D and malam tu buat terawih hajat di hati nk dpt dkt tmpat tawaf tu. tp rmai sgt org. so last2 dpt dpn tangge, dekat dgn tangki air zamzam. tak rasa penat pun sembahyang 20 rakaat masa tu.. lps 8 die benti kejap. tp sebab aku duduk dkt dgn tmpt air tu. so, org arab mintak mintak air. jd waiter kejap . huhu. abes malam tu lepak makan n then tido. ready utk sahur..

esknye lps sahur pg solat subuh. alone i was. teringat pulak fakta. 'orang arab suke tidur lps subuh' so ape lg. patah balik pg dkt kaabah tu. orang tak ramai.. alhamdulillah.walaupun kne rebut rebut. kali ni dapat. :') and lps tu. ddk dkt situ smpai zohor bace quran dgn orang arab. lps zohor tu pg madinah pulak.. and happen to be madinah sangat2 panas.nk solat dkt lua tu pn tak tahan kaki. tp hotel die bes. :3 malam tu masa nk buke, buke dkt dlm masjid. punye ramai la org dkt situ. igtkan takde tempat dah. ruperupenye. ramai yg dkt situ berebut. utk bg tempat dkt org so that org len bole.kn ade hadith yg ckp, sape bg org lain berbuke. die dpt pahale sama mcm org yg nk buke tu :) walaupun tak seberapa. buke yougurt. kurma. teh... malam tu hassan balek terawih lps 8. die masuk bilik bwk kunci. then ktorg yg laen ni. nk masuk bilik mcm org bodo ah jerit2. last2 dpt masuk tido. ready for the next day. lps sahur. solat.. tour around ada satu hari tu panas sangat. sebelum tour tu basahkan baju. klua skjp je. da kering. huhu..malam tu shopping and memandangkan trolley tu tak gune syilling. ktorg bawak smpai masuk hotel :D

ni tangki tangki air isi air zamzam di sekitar masjid Al-haram di mekah dan Masjid Annabawi di madinah. lori tu ade sekali nk elak org. and then jatuh semua ni. hehehe

le shopping time di madinah :)

luar Masjid nabawi 

dalam masjid nabawi. orang berebut nk solat sunat dkt sini :)

this continues dlm 4 hari kt. then balek semula ke mekah.. for 3 more days tak silap. umrah mcm biase. solat.  lepak dgn pak arab. mkn dkt kdai mcm kfc.. tp lg awesome. that was the finale. then. back to mesir :)
ok, rutin kat mesir takde la ape sgt. bgn 4 pg sahur. then solat. pagi kelas smpai zhr. lps tu ada masa free smpai malam. tp apa yg besnye dkt mesir. is the environment mase ramadhan. MasyaAllah. ..

last dinner di mekah. ayah hassan belanja :D

masa otw balek ke cairo. makcik ni tak pose. die igt da buke. tp anak die kt sebelah ckp belum lg. hee~

ok. for starters. waktu bulan puase. is cuti umum dkt mesir. yg bukak sume yg biase2 je. disebabkan ni, orang sume pakat2 tidur dkt masjid. and bole tengok mmg ramai gila dkt masjid. dr budak budak smpai la ke org tue. and masa solat terawih tu. masjid sume solat 8 je. tp sehari tu. bole habis 2 3 juzu. so, bole bayangkan la bape lame kn.org tue sume time solat duduk atas kerusi kecik. bile nk ruku' br die bgn. ade je masjid yg bace sikit2 je :) tp orang mesir ni kuat. lebih ramai dkt masjid yg lama tu. nama masjid tu Masjid Salam.disebabkan rmai org. masjid tu die dah mcm 2 msjid actually. satu utk laki satu utk pompuan. and disebabkan byk variation masjid masjid tu. rasa bes bile setiap malam solat dekat masjid lain lain. paling bes lg bile dah masuk 10 terakhir. kalau dkt masjid Amru Alas. jalan di sekitar 5 kilometer sekeliling masjid kene tutup utk memberi ruang org nk i'tikaf. and not just that. dorg ni kalau baca quran tu.. konfirm tak lari la 3 kali khatam tu. mana tak nye, ke mana mana. bawak quran kan. and pompuan tu. kalau yg jenis pkai rantai tu. dorg pkai yg jenis mcm tasbih. so bole buat pahale disamping fesyen? haha. 

berbuke di baubah thalith, sabi'. cairo

berbuke di tanta :)

berbuke di cairo. somewhere. tak igt. ni buke 2nd time dgn batch baru student under mara

ni tanta dr rooftop. amazing kan? *dont judge the book from its cover. rumah dalam die cantik!

sebelum masuk kelas bahasa :)

ni rumah saya punye turn utk organize buka puasa.

 tak dilupekan juga. masa dkt mesir ni. antare program yg seronok dibuat dan disertai, pegi buke / sahur dkt rumah kwn2. and ofcourse ade je turn kite punye rumah kne jadi hos. sometimes pg jauh jauh semata mata utk tu. and to top it all up. ni 1st time raya bkn dgn family. bru la rase feeling dgn lagu2 raye klasik. 10 days it was. lps tu baru balek malaysia.

1 syawal bersama housemates di cairo :) 1st time buat rendang. tp disebabkan kurang arif. terpakse call mak di malaysia ajarkan macamane. haha~

and that was my most awesome ramadhan. wish i could repeat it. or even have a better one. but lets make use with what we have right. fuh, abes dah tulis. but it never felt good to be writing months of experience in one post. banyak highlights tak bleh nk mention sgt. but still. im here just to share. kalau nk tau lg nnt tanye la directly eh :)

miracles of friday the 13th :)

WOOOOF! its been a while i havent updated. no, its been several months. thts not a while. its not that i have nothing to tell. but rather the new format of writing it self is not ali-friendly,. get it? hee~


so, 13 hb julai. tarikh yang dinantikan ramai orang. result upu utk peringkat ijazah dah keluar . so yahh. aku punye pn dah keluar. malam tu takleh tido. tak tau sebab apa. so, pagi lps subuh br boleh tido. tp mmg tak la en. org dah mule calling .. msg tanye dpt mana. aku ckp mule aku nk cek sabtu pagi. but bile pike2 balek. buat apa tunggu. takkan ssh nye kalau aku dah cek sndiri kan. and so, key in the details. ic and matrik .. Walla~

tak tahu la kenape . masa 1st time tgk,.hepy. 2nd 3rd time and so on. mcm heartbreak pulak. mengapakah? well, masa apply upu, aku pn mintak course ni sebab umi yg suro. die ckp letak je. kalau ada rezeki dapat. takde takpe la. tp masa da kemaskini, then i realized one thing. upu ni bukannye kite main pilih pilih mana yg org suro kite letak then kite rase takle dpt pg kt choice lps tu. but rather we pick the courses yg kite rase kite minat. and thx to most of the m.o's and meds students. dorg ckp mcm medic tak elok. so , aku pn bile pike balek. baek amek dentist. and yah. mase tu i wished i got that course.

and sebenarnye, last minit masa utk kemaskini upu dulu(like,1150pm) aku sempat tukar buat adjustment sikit utk pastikan aku dpt apa yg aku nk. the thing is, aku refer masa apply upu lps spm dulu. kelihatan. ape yg aku dpt. adelah last choice. out of 6 yg aku pilih, yg last skali aku dpt. so. aku igt kalau aku letak yg aku taknak dkt 1st choice, maybe ade possibility utk aku dpt ape yg aku nk.. but yah. turned out, 1st choice dpt. bunyi mcm tak bersyukur kan?


okay, sambung dulu cerita yeh, of course la. alang alang on9. bukak la twitter fb.. obviously. same question from different people. *dapat mana* *u apa* *dpt tak upu* dan lain lain. so, konsep aku senang, sape tanye, aku jwb. then, tergerak hati nk tanye budak kelas c6. then bile dpt tau. aku sorg je dpt course ni . asking around. and after tanye dorg.nmpak la . rmai dpt secare kelompok. kcuali azman sorg dkt sabah :3 hehe . anyways, mostly dpt secare berkelompok. either dpt same u @ same branch but different courses. or, dpt satu course dkt u yg sama,. UNTUNGLEWW~ heeeh. foreveralone T.T mountained problems~

it all happened in one afternoon. so i need a timeout to think back to me. so pegi la solat jumaat. balek tu tgk spiderman kjap, then balek tu. call opah. ckp kt die psl result ni. mmg kalau apa apa achievement, opah la yg paling exited nk tau. kalah umi, kalah ayah. so i called. nasib baek kali ni die tak nangis mcm mase dpt tau result spm dulu. so , lps tu ckp kt umi pulak. have to admit. this is the 1st time umi is satisfied with what i achieved ever since i was little. biase lps dpt tau result umi akan marah sbb ada imperfections. obviously. im just a mortal. but this time.masa tau dpt medic, she hugged me. that shows exactly she's happy. mana tak nye, im the second person in the bloodline to ever pursue  in medical related field.and dari kecik lg mmg umi nk anak dokter kan? hmm

then it got me thinking, everytime i ask myself, what really makes you happy? id answer that, im happy when i can make other people happy. ofcourse. this thing made few people very exited. (still, not sure it is it for the honor job, or the fame) and yah. if we see the fundamental fabric nature of medical related studies, is to help people. it should sync with me . and lagi satu. kalau tgk balek masa apply upu after spm ( cc http://thiscronicle.blogspot.com/2011/05/heartbroken-over-moon-oke-ramai-budak.html ) see how my 1st impression is always bad. haha. kne buang tabiat ni. huhu. dulu aku mcm tak suke nak duduk palam. tp da setaun. haish, nk tinggal kan palam pun mcm nk nanges :) hopefully its the same thing happening again. and pasal kawan tu. insyaAllah, aku takkan lupekan korg. just hope korg pn tak lupekan aku yeh :) semua Allah dah tentukan. kite doa moge moge ape yg Allah tentukan ni. terbaik utk diri kita. :)

a slice of life , puncak alam (part I)

heres a little something, a few i could recall ..menulis dengan  kadar yg segera... a chapter from a story.. an important one though :)

semester 1 ,

hari pertama datang, disebabkan rumah dekat , 23 hb, parking dkt bawah, beratur panjang panjang. seb bek brg sikit senang nak naek. heeeh. smpai atas, abg mds sorg ( tak silap org pgl abg alham?) die ckp aku takle register kalau tak pkai tie n tight in ... fine, aku dftar then naek bilik. A2506b3. wah,, roomate dh smpai, tgk beza gila oke. katil dia penuh dgn barang.aku?? bawak satu beg baju, beg sekolah, and satu baldi. mule la umi marah. and jd masalah gila, bila locker aku takle bukak . dkt sebulan aku hidup takde locker. dont ask how T.T 

1st week, ofcosla kn? mds~ sumpah tak bes. part yg bes masa main game kt padang kawad, well, yg datang 1st day je la merasa. heee. time main game tu... aku igt lagi, 1st 1st die suro cari nilai rm1.20 aku ngn ozzy lari pg kt pmpuan sebab, dlm game tu laki worth 50sen and pompuan 2osen. so we need a girl to cmplete that value, tp sume jual mahal. second one disuruh buat value 70 sen. amek kau. berebut kau nk cari lelaki. reti pulak tarik tarik aku smpai koyak nametag uitm aku.. huhu, dunia dunia. haha..

oh yaa. time tu jugak , budak rumah aku skuad elit. kisahnye adalah disebabkan, bilik kami disyaki tidak tutup lampu mase malam. so bile bdk rumah 2506 lari nek atas. tgk2 sebenarnye... rumah sebelah yg tak ttp lampu. so , disebabkan bile tgk tu abg tu ckp ' jd kamu tutupkan lampu dorg?' maka bergelarlah skuad elit, dpt mkn dulu. dpt senang nk excuse kalau lmbt, oke, rasanye setiap aktiviti turun lmbt. haahaaa.

and the following weeks, mule berjinak dengan palam, mule berkenal dengan ramai orang. mule membiasakan diri dengan persekitaran... cite psl classmates, sume dh cite dkt post sblm ni. nk cite selain tu pulak :) meet za housemates.. bole kate sume housemate dari sbp. sorang je tak. huuh. hebat hebat sume. 1st thing 1st. roomate paling hensem dkt palam, nik muhammad syahmi. sape tak knl kn? :P baek die ni, untungla sape jd bini die. the next person yg dikenal, muhammad uzair (ozzy) actually due org ni sama sama register sekali. then naek bilik jmpe ozzy die ckp. knl tak die? and then. walla~ penah jumpe dkt easy math mase f5 dulu. hee, lps tu asraf alikasturi. org besa sbpi jempol, sry weh selalu kacau kau time tido, seronok tgk kau ngigau.. mereka mereka ni la rajin tgk aku skate tengah malam. hehe.and then azharjiha n wan. mesra betol dorg ni.haaha. and then sideq n azram. huuh~

owh ya. i have hobby that i cant leave at home. S K A T E :) not that im good with it. but its enough to ease my tension away :D mule mule nk main, sedih jugak bile tau takde sorg pn dkt palam yg main. gagah jugak bawak. and then tau tau. fazil, main jugak. wah, ade la jgk geng. main 2 3 kali ngn die masa sem 1. and then ahmad pn join sekali. and once i remember, waking up, solat, tgu ozzy abes dota. then ktorg skate dkt psb, and then ride smpai mcd dgn baju tido tu, pak guard marah sebab tu eh? -,- oh well, it sure was fun :)

and last but not least a few friends yg aku rasa. perlu aku mention. it all starts when, acap selalu lepak dgn shoot. n shoot shahidan ni,  selalu lepak dengan allisya n roomate die, miwa. apparently, dorg ni selalu lepak dengan nad. a friend i knew also masa dkt easy math. :)n then,, ozzy pn join the club :3 these are the peoples  that i went through thicks and thins masa sem 1 . thx for evrything guys!.. n tak dilupekan juga. mereka mereka, yang aku dah kenal sebelum masuk palam, but never get to meet before, or know for real... and there you are :) in palam we met .. n also, mereka mereka. yg klua awl awl sem dulu. walaupun sempat kenal skjp je. but still korg still diingati (Y) cewah~

nothing much in 1st sem aside of all this, my life resolve around these awesome peoples. typical routine, still learning to adapt with that life.n there i did. only that 1st semester didnt end well. puan lizana once said before midsem holidays, pls come in one piece" and i came with a broken humerus.hehh. after the mid sem break. i had to study with a broken arm...not easy.and answering exams with one hand is really  not great. n hard. hish. but then came the second semester :D coming up next ..=)

P/s: goodluck sume budak palam yeh:) all the best. and make the best with what you will get ;)

saranghae c6 :D

ok, tgk 2 gmba kt atas ni. tau tak ape beza dia?

well, obviously,kalau tengok yg satu tu, gmba yg kite amek masa mule mule masok sini, tak silap tu 2nd week kot. sebab luqman pn dh takde time ni.. and the 2nd one, masa sem 2. dh nk abes asasi. tak silap 2nd last week of lecture kan kawan kawan? :)

ok, tgk gmba 1st tu, agak agak , masa snap gmba tu kan. kite kenal ke org sebelah kite ape name? asal mana? nk pandang klasmate sndiri pn mase tu segan. apetah lagi kalau nk tegur. tapi yg lagi satu... kite sendiri tau kan beze die? :) ke aku salah? hmm

anywayssss...

in this post i would like to introduce how i really met you guys :)

masa sem 1 dulu, aku igt lagi. 1st person yg aku tego, azman. masa tu Bel. as usual aku datang lmbat. then duduk between aqila and azman. nk tegur azman, die sebok dengan tidur die. nk tegur aqila. lg la segan kan?? hehe. so i started doing f5 punye admath. azman tengok. aqila tgk. due due try. so ade la jgk aktiviti nk buat to kill some times. then bel habis. aku perasan. syafiq ada sekali. aku ngn die satu grup mase mds :) kitorg mkn sekali dekat rsu..

lepas tu masuk lab chmstry. sesat dulu sebelum tu. hehe. masok lab, tak cukup seat. so aku dgn azman berdiri... time tu gg tanye. ni sape name. then die ckp *kawankawan... ni ali.* haha. lawak pulak pike balek benda ni. :D oke, nk cite cmne aku kenal korg sume dulu sebenarnye :) hee

lelaki tayah cite sgt kot. ok, masa tu kelas tutorial. sorg2 introduce , then masa khadijah najwa ckp die dr kelantan, aku ngn anwar start la ' oooo , mek klate rupenye' hee.. terciptalah nama gelarannye yg aku rasa 90% budak kelas panggil :) then, after that hafsah tegur. sebab ade few kwn sekolah die, dari sekolah aku... few minutes after that, aku nk pegi fotostat smthing. afi yazid pn follow sekali sebab die nk beli cable internet kan? :) esknye pulak. farah tego, die ckp knl tak kwn skola rendah die. well. msti la kenal budak sekolah menengah saya. :) and then budak bertam masok. aku perasan sorg2 kne introduce diri kt depan. ta kigt sgt psl luqman. igt hadi. die speaking :D HAHAHAHAHA ... so that was for the day..

the next group of people i met was the ones yg sama grup kmia dengan aku. athirah dan juga ainaa :) ok, mlm pulak, da start buat discussion kt tingkat atas kt raff. time tu ade la beberapa org,, tp geng mek sume dah complete time tu ;) teringat pulak aku senanye ade benda nk bincang dgn khai, psl bio. tp athirah tersilap, bagi nombo wan.. hee. well, ni sebab, masa lab bio, dulu lelaki bajet nk buat satu grup, pastu puan suro pecah pecah. dapat la aku dengan satu grup dengan kwn kwn klntn ni .. wan khairina, siti hapisah, nur izzati. masa 1st time nk bincang lab bio, punye awkward gila. rasa mcm sume nk cakap tp segan segan. masa kt raf, ez nafi suro add die kt facebook! followed by khairina :) last last, kite decide utk take turn buat kan? bijak jugak kami ni,, hehehe.well, basically tu je la yg aku tau ade kisah di sebalik perkenalan kite satu kelas. the other classmates. aku kenal dari masa ke semasa.

well, ade yg lain, takde la kisah ape sgt, just mcm, husna. aku kenal die sebab roomate die kawan lama aku ... allyn and nura. aku tego dorg , well, msti dorg kenal kan, amir dgn , sape tah lgi sorg. saje buat buat knl kwn dorg ..hee.lawak la korg :) mishu nina nisah nabilah tasnim sume aku kenal dari masa ke semase :) entah kenapa. masa sem satu dulu, nak tegur memang segan gile... maybe takut korg rasa awkward sebab ckp dgn lelaki?

tapi, masa sem 1 dulu. lps tangan aku patah tu. it made me realize one thing.rugi lah aku kalau tak kenal sume kawan kawan aku ni. and alhamdulillah. sem 2 ni, kite sendiri dpt tgk kan? bezenye kite dari sem 1 dulu :) komunikasi 2 hala... dulu aku nk ckp dgn tasnim die mana pandang aku. tasnim kerek :P hehehe. dan aku bersyukur sgt, kelas kite takda yg jenis loner. mksd aku . if ada aktiviti kelas ke pape, korg participate. kalau mcm kelas lain, jenis mmg tak bertegur pn ade. puak puak pun ada. laki pumpuan ade jgn risau. hehe.

umi penah ckp . masa tu nk masok skola harian dari sekolah asrama.

" in life we dont just create knowledge and but we also create memories. grab the most that we can out of both of them"

"umi rasa umi paling igt zaman u , masa dkt asasi dlu.. rasa mcm smlm je, harini kamu pulak nk habis asasi dah"

and she tells a lot of stories about her foundation times... and made me conclude : waktu asasi ni la waktu paling berharge. kau nk belajar. kau nk cari kawan. kau nk buat mcm mcm. this is the time. kalau la umi still bole sebut sorg sorg classmate die masa asasi dulu. insyaAllah, korg sume aku igt smpai aku tua :)

thats why, kadang kadang, ckp dgn korg, ade terlebih, kadang kadang korg rasa rimas, kadang kadang aku ckp tersalah, aku nk korg faham,niat aku sebenarnye tak lain tak bukan,just nk bg waktu aku kt asasi ni terisi dengan korg,instead of just merely books only.huuh. lps nih takde dh nk kacau korg time kelas ke. time luar kelas ke. nk usik korg dengan org ni ke, dengan org tu ke. yg pasti lps ni knfm rindu korg :)

lps ni..bile pg kedai, nmpak magnum , teringat khai dgn nabilah yg penah belanje magnum(khai borong~) haa, nmpak je benda benda made up of strawberry,, ingat khai..... topup abes, igt anwar. denga lagu taylor swift. teringat dkt geng nisah sume.... denga lagu rihanna umbrella teringat dkt nina :D nk pkai kasut teringat mek ngn athirah :) tp yg pasti, bile tgk je gmba kelas tringt kat korg sume :D

farah penah ckp kt aku. " kau takle terime kenyataan lg ke skrg ni kite sume dah EX - classmate?"

well, ni jawapan aku. bknnye aku takle terima. tapi aku rasa, selagi mana aku mampu, selagi tu aku akan buat ape yg aku boleh utk korg, and selagi tu, korg bergelar classmate. and aku lg suke bile ckp psl classmate , membahasakan korg sebagai, kawan kelas aku dulu* instead of EX-classmate. being an EX usually refer to someone you dont see again. or you dont want to see again. and i have no intention in that. and kalau di beri peluang utk jumpe korg mmg aku akan jumpe korg :)

dah dua kali, kawan aku meniggal, aku tak sempat nak buat pape kt dorg. aku ambil ringan sangat. aku endahkan aje dorg. "alah,lps ni mcm tak jumpe lg je" last last aku jumpe die dkt kubur. aku taknak ulang benda yang sama buat kali ke tiga. taknak lepas ni aku jumpe korg, atau dengar berita pasal korg, benda yang sama terjadi.

And just incase, benda yg aku cakap tu jadi kt aku, aku nk mintak maaf awal awal dkt korg . maafkan segala salah silap aku. maafkan aku kalau dlm gurau senda ada yang terasa, maafkan aku kalau dalam berjumpe, ada je yg tak kene. ape yg aku buat, ade je yg korg meluat. huuh. halalkan makan minum aku. kalau terpau lebeh ke sry eh. yg penting sekali halalkan ilmu ilmu yg korg share ngn aku selama ni.doakan aku kalau aku dh takde nnt eh ? :)

just so you all know. korg la classmate terbaek aku. kadang kadang sebab korg la aku datang jugak kelas. even takde pn lecture (masa bel tuh) sbb ada korg aku dtg jugak. bole gosip disamping tu . hehehe. kadang kadang, dalam kelas aku suke tgk kerenah sorg sorg. so tau la sikit sikit rahsia korg. tp jgn risau, it is safe with me :D kadang kadang ckp ngn korg, aku rasa mcm bersyukur korg classmate aku. and bukannye org yang bermasalah mcm ada certain certain org dkt kelas lain ...mcm mcm aku belajar dr korg. ada yg tersurat. kebanyakannya tersirat :)

cut it short,

sorry for everything,

and thank you for all the wonderful things.

till death do us apart, saranghae c6 :)

tribute to c6 :

more to come :)

introduction 2.0 :)

time flies, though its impossible to pause it, nevertheless, i never stop hoping that it would. up until now,

today should be the day that arwah sudirman passed away, 20 years ago,.and yeah, there's a tale behind the eve of that night when he passed away. Well, nothing fancy. Just a strong woman being delayed of giving a birth to a child.

it was somewhat near midnight. her water broke. As she tried to get to the hospital at Klang, Her husband said to her

" nak pegi bank sekejap. amek duet. kang pg hospital takde duet susah"

and She was obviously forcing her head to nod and agree with her husband's action. and at the hospital. she was not attended by any nurse or doctor. trying to give birth on her own, everyone around her was talking about arwah Sudirman..

"Ya Allah kesian nye die ni. "

"mude mude lg die dah meninggal. "

"Malaysia da hilang seorang seniman.."

bla bla bla~

and she was like

" haish. aku ni dah nak beranak nak mati jugak rasa korg dok pike org yg dh mati tu kenapa??!!"

and yeah. there. almost 20 hours later. a boy was given. named after a famous islamic doctor.the Father of the medicine. :)

so, with time, comes age. with age, comes wisdom?? haha~ i wish. but say all you want. to me age is just about the number. but every year this time arrives, i always want to start it with something new, and something that would make me a better person for the years to come.

and so , i would like to hold my hands together to just ask for a simple wish on this day. it shouldnt be too hard, but occasions such as this day should make it easy even if it hard. heehee.

i would like to seek apology to everyone whom i've known for this, 20 years i lived. That would be the greatest present you could ever give to me. and only Allah could repay you for such kindness. thank you everyone :)

pernah tak?

kadang kadang dalam hidup, kita diuji dengan macam macam, tapi dalam hati kita rasa macam ada sesuatu yg tak kena. walaupun orang semua cakap, *biaselah dugaan hidup, tuhan sayang kau weh*

senang berkata di mulut, susah diterima hati. sebab kita tahu seakan akan ada seuatu yang tidak kena.

something is really wrong with something with me.

i just hope im wrong,

seriously.

life frustration

look what the system did to me?

this is not who i was. i was better before

way better

trying to improve from that point.

to become one of the best perhaps.

but in the process

i followed the path of trusting someone .

telling the personal part of my problem,

so i could one day be just like all of them,

that are respected in the society,

and loved by the angels of heavens.

but you turn against me,

supposedly ,

if i follow the rule,

my problems areto be solved,

not being talked of it,

not making fun of it.

i guess the system was'nt wrong.

but the system trusted the wrong person

and for that reason,i cannot go back to how i was before,

this is something big, that could affect my whole life,

and it had,

and you shall be blamed.

life was fun, and more meaningful before that,

that moment when you screwed it.

takpe,korg mesti takphm, tp kt luar sana ada yg faham, srry korg terpakse bace.