*a silence echo of hello disperses upon myself in the middle of the night.. and Bismillah prior to that.
when i started this blog back in 2007, ( i had to add up to a new url due to the fact that i forgot the password to my previous blog!) i was determined, that no matter what the circumstances i face, ill keep on posting, writing, about anything significant in my life. And i was very sure that at least, once a month. something will eventually trigger me to write something, and its not something go to waste. at least for me to read it back.
And here i am. more than a year after my previous post. thinking that probably i had already disgraced my determination. i thought back then that nothing could stop me from writing, from expressing what i should. and i fought all the way, till the point of medical degree. hats off to you MBBS. you managed to turn it all around. giving me less time for myself. forcing me to KIV all my post in my mind and eventually not writing them at all. and yeah, look at me. im writing fully in english. this is. something that i think professionally, IS good. but for myself. maybe i should put a border to where is shoud and shouldnt. And hence, in this post is should really start introducing my life. after a year ++ of absence :D
so back in 2012-2013. 1st year of medical degree, probably the hardest degree one could probably go through in their life.that is probably the general term anyone will encounter ( correct me if im wrong) what a freshment i was. it was hard probably starting the new degree in an environment of being the pioneer of something. for starters, our batch (the 10th that is) had to start living in a new hostel, starting with nothing in the room but a bed. but materially , its a small matter. as long as it doesnt affect the studying process, it shouldnt matter much. i hope. and another thing is, we're the 1st to actually start the medical degree program outside UiTM Shah Alam. so there we see ourselves being compared with others. oh well. its a thing everyone will encounter either their conscious state of mind or not ..
speaking of study, i have to admit. its not easy. as for me. im more of a reader type. hence. direct lecture session is not my prime learning method. untungla to those who can grasp the 100 slides of notes in 1 hour during that instance. in addition of the 8am to 5pm class everyday, there is an exam at least once a month. And i must say,, due to the nature of medical study, most of us will come to a point of doubt. it usually happens when theres just too much to study alongside with other works that comes along. it gets worst when the poor studying is reflected in a test / exam 's result. sometimes it takes more than just an epiphany to get back up. sometimes its those around you that will make you ok again. and sometimes. the phrase 'the less you care the better' seems to work best! ( no kidding bro ! )
As the year passes, saying hello to 2014 was one thing. but learning new stuffs was another. As we grow, we tend to seek something more than before. nature of evolution perhaps? we tend to adapt. gaining the best of the current situation. making the best out of what we have. learning became more and more.. 'mobile' and studying was taken to the point of where the necessity is priorified. you see people having their own method of studying. and some of them trying to gain more in their youth by making things more than just studying. some would go on finding side incomes , some would go and develop their extracurriculum skills. but overall, you see people grow in the form of finding what is probably more beneficial aside of just merely learning medicine. a very good thing indeed~!
Nevertheless. along this 2 ++ years. as our lives revolves around the same people, we tend to know them better, and hopefully , making us as a whole, a better group of person. maybe in some ways. it will make us think alot better, in a way of understanding a person. and probably ignore the negative part, and work on mutual benefits. professionally. In short, i think thats the answer to my previous post.
probably in the coming times, i wont have time to dance these fingers on the keyboard. though usually ill tell the process i went through to eventually learnt something that is worthy of updating the blog, maybe in the future, ill write up short notes to save up my time. and probably your time too. thanks for reading this post. have a good and blessed day :)