Demi masa , dulu dan kini

22 tahun dan sebulan

Sebulan .... plus plus...

as our age increases, we realize that we've lived a year longer, and also we have shorter time to live, making us wonder, what have we been doing all these while?

along this 22 years of journey, a lot of things had happen. a lot of things learnt. and ill admit, along the way, at some point, i messed up. im pretty sure we all did right? 

nevertheless. let alone our past be a good example of whom we once we're , and whom we shall refrain from being like that, again. and that is why, i shall not delete the posts from my previous years. let it be something to remind me, for we are mere humans who requires explicit reminder to allow ourselves to see the fine line between what is right and what is not.

the things we did back then cant be repent with turning back time, but we can repent it by not doing it again, ever. i was once who i was, but that doesnt mean ill stay that way forever. the best lesson is learnt not from books, but from experience. seeing and reading, may be a way to hopefully learn. but doing mistakes, FORCES us to learn, and REGRET will allow us to remind ourselves, constantly.

but as the time we have the epiphany , we shall see the world will somehow, turn against ourselves. trying to tear us apart. making our journey towards a better individual, as hell as possible. then i came across this,

"selagi anda beriman, selagi itu anda akan dilanda ujian"

its not a test if its not difficult, its not a test if you get through it everytime, the same way. maybe this is just how life is. ill get use to it. Allah is always there with those who needs him. oh well

A YEAR OLDER, A YEAR WISER,

A GENTLE REMINDER, 

THAT LIFE WONT GO ANY EASIER :)

manfaatnya ilmu itu, lebih dari sekadar tahu

orang tua tua selalu berkata

.

banyak orang, banyak ragam.

kadangkala dalam bertegur sapa,

kita selangi dengan pelbagai kisah dunia

bagai penglipur lara petah bersandiwara 

diselitkan juga gurauan senda..

sungguh,

 hasrat di hati hanyalah untuk menceriakan suasana

mengeratkan jalinan mesra

agar bila tiba masanya,

ini menjadi cebisan amal kita,

tatkala berdepan dengan yang Esa

namun aku sedar aku siapa,

hanya manusia biasa 

tidak lebih dari kalian semua,

tidak akan terlepas dari dosa,

 kadangkala,

ia yang tidak dikesan pancaindera.

betul,

kita dapat dengar apa yang kita bahas,

kita dapat lihat apa yang kita buat.

tetapi,

selalu sahaja aku TERkeliru ,

di antara apa yang aku SEDANG lakukan

dan apa yang aku PATUT lakukan

oleh itu

wahai rakan rakan 

jalankanlah peranan kalian 

bila terlihat kesilapan,

ketahuilah,

teguran diperlukan

kritik pun,rasenya, boleh kan?

malangnya

kadang kala dalam kritik itu 

niat hanya untuk menghina

sedangkan apa yang diperukan 

adalah kritikan yang membina

disampaikan dengan cara yang betul,

disampaikan dengan  suasana yang betul,

jangan jadi bendul

dengan mengolotkan istilah 'betul'

ah, 

pedulikan semua!

tegur nasihat komentar dan kritikan.

adalah asam garam kehidupan,

mengalir dalam darah kita.

sebab aku nak kalian tahu

dan aku rasa kalian mesti sependapat dengan aku

tiada diantara kita
yang tidak ingin ke syurga
.

'tidak akan ke syurga seseorang itu berseorangan'
maka sedarlah wahai rakan rakan
sedarlah..

tegurlah

tegurlah

tegurlah

ali husaini., 2014

sands of time . 2014

*a silence echo of hello disperses upon myself in the middle of the night.. and Bismillah prior to that.





when i started this blog back in 2007, ( i had to add up to a new url due to the fact that i forgot the password to my previous blog!) i was determined, that no matter what the circumstances i  face, ill keep on posting, writing, about anything significant in my life. And i was very sure that at least, once a month. something will eventually trigger me to write something, and its not something go to waste. at least for me to read it back.

And here i am. more than a year after my previous post. thinking that probably i had already disgraced my determination. i thought back then that nothing could stop me from writing, from expressing what i should. and i fought all the way, till the point of medical degree. hats off to you MBBS. you managed to turn it all around. giving me less time for myself. forcing me to KIV all my post in my mind and eventually not writing them at all. and yeah, look at me. im writing fully in english. this is. something that i think professionally, IS good. but for myself. maybe i should put a border to where is shoud and shouldnt. And hence, in this post is should really start introducing my life. after a year ++ of absence :D

so back in 2012-2013. 1st year of medical degree, probably the hardest degree one could probably go through in their life.that is probably the general term anyone will encounter ( correct me if im wrong) what a freshment i was. it was hard probably starting the new degree in an environment of being the pioneer of something. for starters, our batch (the 10th that is) had to start living in a new hostel, starting with nothing in the room but a bed. but materially , its a small matter. as long as it doesnt affect the studying process, it shouldnt matter much. i hope. and another thing is, we're the 1st to actually start the medical degree program outside UiTM Shah Alam. so there we see ourselves being compared with others. oh well. its a thing everyone will encounter either their conscious state of mind or not ..

speaking of study, i have to admit. its not easy. as for me. im more of a reader type. hence. direct lecture session is not my prime learning method. untungla to those who can grasp the 100 slides of notes in 1 hour during that instance. in addition of the 8am to 5pm class everyday, there is an exam at least once a month. And i must say,, due to the nature of medical study, most of us will come to a point of doubt.  it usually happens when theres just too much to study alongside with other works that comes along. it gets worst when the poor studying is reflected in a test / exam 's result. sometimes it takes more than just an epiphany to get back up. sometimes its those around you that will make you ok again. and sometimes. the phrase 'the less you care the better' seems to work best! ( no kidding bro ! )

As the year passes, saying hello to 2014 was one thing. but learning new stuffs was another. As we grow, we tend to seek something more than before. nature of evolution perhaps? we tend to adapt. gaining the best of the current situation. making the best out of what we have. learning became more and more.. 'mobile' and studying was taken to the point of where the necessity is priorified. you see people having their own method of studying. and some of them trying to gain more in their youth by making things more than just studying. some would go on finding side incomes , some would go and develop their extracurriculum skills. but overall, you see people grow in the form of finding what is probably more beneficial aside of just merely learning medicine. a very good thing indeed~!

Nevertheless. along this 2 ++ years. as our lives revolves around the same people, we tend to know them better, and hopefully , making us as a whole, a better group of person. maybe in some ways. it will make us think alot better, in a way of understanding a person. and probably ignore the negative part, and work on mutual benefits. professionally. In short, i think thats the answer to my previous post.

probably in the coming times, i wont have time to dance these fingers on the keyboard. though usually ill tell the process i went through to eventually learnt something that is worthy of updating the blog, maybe in the future, ill write up short notes to save up my time. and probably your time too. thanks for reading this post. have a good and blessed day :)

wise word of the day... whats your say??

Small group session. physiology class. conducted by prof khatiza. a very motherly professor :)


and one thing that caught my attention during her session, aside of all the blessful knowledge... she said something that somehow caught my attention...

In medical school, theres no such thing as girls and boys... the only thing there is, are brothers and sisters...

how much do you agree?? i got few things to comment on. next post ;)

Assalamualaikum , 2013

(2009: gambar 1st day masuk smk harian )

increase in work load

increase in demand for workload. 

but the constant amount of time.

dh bape bulan tak post. rasenye macam nk stop blogging. but i think it will be an utter waste kalau buat cmtu.. so yah. lets make a quick recap between the months i stopped posting and, 2013 :)

so yah. a dull life indead. medicine is a really dull life. haha. books books. cries, books. lectures. sacrifices are essential. dh takde dh masa nk enjoy sgt,.nak bersukan pn ssh. but above all, i met new peoples. heeh. macam ragam macam rupa, yang penting, semuanya hebat hebat. :) deputy dean pnah ckp.. kalau nk jd hebat kne la berdamping dgn org org hebat ... so yah, ill put those words to use.

sedar tak sedar. dh nk dekat final sem 1. although . aku ada lg 9 sem to go. still, rasa mcm nk dpt pace tu ssh je. not complaining. just trying to adapt smoothly :) but never the less. apa yg terjadi, bukan hak kita untuk complain. sbb kita tak tau mana yg terbaik utk kita n yg mana sebenarnye buruk untuk kita. yang pasti, for every good thing that happened, there's a reason, and for every hardship that follows, there's a silver lining :) 

 *Gunakan Hak berfikir sebelum Hak Bersuara* malique.....

ramadhan finale : true story

27th Ramadhan. as to this date , this post is posted. most of us are probably already sooooooo super exited with the coming raya.. but this post , i actually wanna share something, that might make us all be exited about the right thing. and here i am. sharing a few real stories that occurred to me back in ramadhan 2008 . stories that made me think of what am i doing with my times.

*****

masa tu malam 10 terakhir, malam ganjil yang pastinya. aku dkt rumah baubah thani di sabii' , cairo. lps terawih mlm tu. tga lepak lepak di ruang tamu bersama housemate. tibe tibe. sorang kawan ni dpt call dari rumah . rupa rupanya. mak dia call. setelah beberapa minit(dkt setengah jam jugak) die hang up, and then dia cite ape jadi . kawan dia di sekolah dulu(perempuan) baru  je meninggal. tapi ceritanya membuatkan ibu si mati tidak lah sesedih yang disangkakan.

pada malam tersebut. si ibu sedang solat terawih bersama anaknya dirumah. kebiasaannye mereka akan solat 20 rakaat. tetapi pada malam tersebut,si anak tak larat dan menyuruh ibunya solat sendiri sementara dia membaca berehat sebentar dibelakang ibunya. ibunya memberitahu pada mulanya disangkakan anaknya hendak tidur lalu di suruh untuk tidur di atas katil. nk tido tido btul2~~** tetapi anaknya ingin membaca alquran sebentar , untuk menggantikan solat terawih 12 rakaat yg tidak terdaya untuk dilakukan pada mlm tersebut.

maka sedang si ibu solat , kedengaran si arwah sedang membaca alqur'an. sehingga hampir selesai si ibu solat pada rakaat ke 19 katanya si anak mula membaca alquran dengan nada yg perlahan, dan makin perlahan. selesai sahaja 20 rakaat kelihatan si anak telah tertidur di atas dengan quran ditangannya. si ibu teruskan dengan solat witir. selesai sahaja 3 rakaat, si ibu lihat anaknya masih lg tidur seperti tadi. ibunya menyuruh dia tidur di biliknya. namun tidak di jawab. dan apabila cuba digerakkan , maka ketika itulah si ibu tahu si anaknya telah meninggal semasa membaca alquran...

meniggal pada malam ganjil di bulan yg mulia dengan melalukan kebaikan. Masya Allah.

*****

 tak pasti malam ke berapa. tapi yang pasti masa tu aku dah bosan malam malam. (fyi org arab ni mostly tak tdo malam tp tido lps subuh) jd, lps lepak minum jus dkt kdai, ktorg lepak cc. terasa sangat bosan ( kids, dont try this at home) aku bukak myspace.~~ haha. and then bukak la profile sorg kwn aku ni. bace la komen komen die dgn sorg mamat ni.. kelihatan dia sedang gadoh dgn sorang laki ni. for the most stupidest reason... perempuan, this wasnt the actual conversation. but it was something like this.
laki tu: kau kt mana

mamat tu : aku kt mamak la knpe

laki tu : aku ade benda nk setel

mamat tu : pasal pompuan tu ke..

laki tu : ye ah. kau sukati je buat ape kau nk kn. die tu aku punye

mamat tu : kau langkah mayat aku dulu la

laki tu : kau tgu situ aku dtg skrg kite setel.

the next day,aku pg balek cc nk tgk kesudahan drama ni. mamat tu update status ckp laki tu coward sebab didnt show up. plus laki tu keep calling pagi tu. and then die start balek conversation

laki tu : kau knpe tak angkat call aku

mamat tu: kau pondan kate nk dtg ni nk call je buat ape aku nk jwb.

laki tu : weh ni aku abg die weh. kawan kau tu dah meninggal.

mamat : kau jgn nk buat cite la. tak brani ckp la.

laki tu. btul la, aku bukak die punye myspace sbb kau taknak jwb aku call. mlm ni ktorg buat tahlil kau datang tau. aku tak dpt nk contact sgt kwn kwn die yg lain, kau sorg je yg aku knl skrg ni. sebab tak silap aku semalam die ckp die nk pg jumpe kau sebelum accident tu. kau ajk la kwn2 die yg laen yeh. tq.

aku yg bace ni pn terkejut, last last aku pg tnaye die nk tnye btol ke tak. and die cakap btul...... semoge kite dilindungi daripada mendapat nasib seperti dia.

meniggal ketika bulan yg mulia, tetapi dengan amalan yang sia sia lagi berdosa. Na'uzubillah.

*****

so thts about it. two different people having their last ramadhan with two different ending. and here we are , still having ourselves the power and will to decide which is we desire. either the one with the good ending that most of us crave for (husnul khatimah). or the one we fear we might end our lives at the times and places  we hope we dont. ive been there. and thankful for that i wasnt the unlucky ones. 

theres still a few days left. lets not waste these precious days with raya preperation. just ask ourselves. 

'apa jadi kalau ni Ramadhan terakhir aku? adakah aku akan menghabiskannya seperti ramadhan ramadhan yang lalu dimana amalan tidak seberapa. atau berusaha untuk menambah amal baik dari ramadhan sebelum ni. let us all take some lessons from the arabs, you can read it from my previous post. ckup lah mereka disekeliling menjadi peringatan .till then. may Allah guide us all :)

highlights of ramadhan di perantauan :)

selamat menyambut ramadhan :)



i have to say. Ramadhan kali ni. agak bes sebab aku tak perlu risau pasal belajar ! and kali ni aku puasa dengan 2 tangan :D yeay. alhamdulillah. still. ni bukan kali pertama aku berpuase tanpe perlu risau byk perkara dunia. sbb aku rasa bg aku. the best ramadhan for me. was back in 2008 :) berpuasa semase umrah dan juga di mesir ..

ok, unlike most people, aku dapat pergi umrah dengan kawan kawan,with a veeeeeeeeeery cheap price. (takpayah bayar penginapan yg bes tu. hehe). so. bg aku. bile pergi dgn kawan kawan ni. kite tak terikat sangat dgn apa apa and senang nak buat apa apa, so yah. aku pergi buat umrah for the 1st time tgk kaabah , well, semua yg dah pergi tau kan perasaan die cmne. dalam hati waktu tu dok pike. selama ni dkt rumah, nk cari kiblat kne ikut matahari. and that was no more. the main point of attraction ada dkt situ. knowing that kalau kita toleh kebelakang, berapa rmai yg sebenarnye mingidam nk berada btul2 dpn kaabah ni ...tp masa baru 1st time umrah tu belum puase lagi. so, malam tu buat la umrah mcm biase. malam tu lps abes umrah, pg dkt kaabah. tawaf. bru sedar. die baru je lps bersihkan kaabah. which means. orang tak ramai. so, cube la nk cium hajar aswad mase tu.tp tak berkesempatan .sebab orang rmai. plus dgn pkai ihram yg senang tertanggal tu. takpela. mission failed. smpat capai je.and wee,... botak :)

30 Sya'aban.

sebelum mendaki ke gua hira . otw ada byk pitstop jual air. and ada peti ais sekali. cmane tah die agkt peti ais smpai atas tu. huhu

 patutnye mase ni semua orang dah bz nk siap siap dengan ramadhan,, tp tour guide nk bawak pergi panjat gua Hira waktu tu. so. pagi tu pg la panjat dgn kwn2 and also, masa tu ada budak budak semasyur :) smpai atas lepak dgn makcik turki. eventhough die takle phm malay/english/arab .. kami borak macam lew phm sume benda.lastly sebelum turun die bg gula gula .and obvioiusly penat kan .. balek tu da tengahari and masa petang tu tertidur bersama rakan rakan. pttnye ptg tu nk pg gua Thur pulak. tp tak sedar. tau tau dah abes terawih . pukul 10 smting kt. so nk buat ape lg. burn dh hari tu. mlm tu kami jln2 beli barang. senang senanye nk bargain dgn org arab ni. cite psl phone die. + ckp arab. knfm takde hal nk dpt barang murah :D

1 ramadhan.
umi ckp dkt airport dulu pkai la beberapa pn, tp mesti buat. bagi org berbuke. and kalau tgkkan. org arab ni suke minum air gas. so ape lg. bg la byk2 dkt dorg :) yg takleh bela tu org memilih -,- urhh.~ anyways. masa tu berbuke dgn org mesir. die bg mkn mknn die. sedap sgt :D and malam tu buat terawih hajat di hati nk dpt dkt tmpat tawaf tu. tp rmai sgt org. so last2 dpt dpn tangge, dekat dgn tangki air zamzam. tak rasa penat pun sembahyang 20 rakaat masa tu.. lps 8 die benti kejap. tp sebab aku duduk dkt dgn tmpt air tu. so, org arab mintak mintak air. jd waiter kejap . huhu. abes malam tu lepak makan n then tido. ready utk sahur..

esknye lps sahur pg solat subuh. alone i was. teringat pulak fakta. 'orang arab suke tidur lps subuh' so ape lg. patah balik pg dkt kaabah tu. orang tak ramai.. alhamdulillah.walaupun kne rebut rebut. kali ni dapat. :') and lps tu. ddk dkt situ smpai zohor bace quran dgn orang arab. lps zohor tu pg madinah pulak.. and happen to be madinah sangat2 panas.nk solat dkt lua tu pn tak tahan kaki. tp hotel die bes. :3 malam tu masa nk buke, buke dkt dlm masjid. punye ramai la org dkt situ. igtkan takde tempat dah. ruperupenye. ramai yg dkt situ berebut. utk bg tempat dkt org so that org len bole.kn ade hadith yg ckp, sape bg org lain berbuke. die dpt pahale sama mcm org yg nk buke tu :) walaupun tak seberapa. buke yougurt. kurma. teh... malam tu hassan balek terawih lps 8. die masuk bilik bwk kunci. then ktorg yg laen ni. nk masuk bilik mcm org bodo ah jerit2. last2 dpt masuk tido. ready for the next day. lps sahur. solat.. tour around ada satu hari tu panas sangat. sebelum tour tu basahkan baju. klua skjp je. da kering. huhu..malam tu shopping and memandangkan trolley tu tak gune syilling. ktorg bawak smpai masuk hotel :D

ni tangki tangki air isi air zamzam di sekitar masjid Al-haram di mekah dan Masjid Annabawi di madinah. lori tu ade sekali nk elak org. and then jatuh semua ni. hehehe

le shopping time di madinah :)

luar Masjid nabawi 

dalam masjid nabawi. orang berebut nk solat sunat dkt sini :)

this continues dlm 4 hari kt. then balek semula ke mekah.. for 3 more days tak silap. umrah mcm biase. solat.  lepak dgn pak arab. mkn dkt kdai mcm kfc.. tp lg awesome. that was the finale. then. back to mesir :)
ok, rutin kat mesir takde la ape sgt. bgn 4 pg sahur. then solat. pagi kelas smpai zhr. lps tu ada masa free smpai malam. tp apa yg besnye dkt mesir. is the environment mase ramadhan. MasyaAllah. ..

last dinner di mekah. ayah hassan belanja :D

masa otw balek ke cairo. makcik ni tak pose. die igt da buke. tp anak die kt sebelah ckp belum lg. hee~

ok. for starters. waktu bulan puase. is cuti umum dkt mesir. yg bukak sume yg biase2 je. disebabkan ni, orang sume pakat2 tidur dkt masjid. and bole tengok mmg ramai gila dkt masjid. dr budak budak smpai la ke org tue. and masa solat terawih tu. masjid sume solat 8 je. tp sehari tu. bole habis 2 3 juzu. so, bole bayangkan la bape lame kn.org tue sume time solat duduk atas kerusi kecik. bile nk ruku' br die bgn. ade je masjid yg bace sikit2 je :) tp orang mesir ni kuat. lebih ramai dkt masjid yg lama tu. nama masjid tu Masjid Salam.disebabkan rmai org. masjid tu die dah mcm 2 msjid actually. satu utk laki satu utk pompuan. and disebabkan byk variation masjid masjid tu. rasa bes bile setiap malam solat dekat masjid lain lain. paling bes lg bile dah masuk 10 terakhir. kalau dkt masjid Amru Alas. jalan di sekitar 5 kilometer sekeliling masjid kene tutup utk memberi ruang org nk i'tikaf. and not just that. dorg ni kalau baca quran tu.. konfirm tak lari la 3 kali khatam tu. mana tak nye, ke mana mana. bawak quran kan. and pompuan tu. kalau yg jenis pkai rantai tu. dorg pkai yg jenis mcm tasbih. so bole buat pahale disamping fesyen? haha. 

berbuke di baubah thalith, sabi'. cairo

berbuke di tanta :)

berbuke di cairo. somewhere. tak igt. ni buke 2nd time dgn batch baru student under mara

ni tanta dr rooftop. amazing kan? *dont judge the book from its cover. rumah dalam die cantik!

sebelum masuk kelas bahasa :)

ni rumah saya punye turn utk organize buka puasa.

 tak dilupekan juga. masa dkt mesir ni. antare program yg seronok dibuat dan disertai, pegi buke / sahur dkt rumah kwn2. and ofcourse ade je turn kite punye rumah kne jadi hos. sometimes pg jauh jauh semata mata utk tu. and to top it all up. ni 1st time raya bkn dgn family. bru la rase feeling dgn lagu2 raye klasik. 10 days it was. lps tu baru balek malaysia.

1 syawal bersama housemates di cairo :) 1st time buat rendang. tp disebabkan kurang arif. terpakse call mak di malaysia ajarkan macamane. haha~

and that was my most awesome ramadhan. wish i could repeat it. or even have a better one. but lets make use with what we have right. fuh, abes dah tulis. but it never felt good to be writing months of experience in one post. banyak highlights tak bleh nk mention sgt. but still. im here just to share. kalau nk tau lg nnt tanye la directly eh :)