How did we get from nowhere, to now-here?
well apparently
since we were small, we watched dragon ball and all sorts of TV shows
expecting one thing : 2020 is the year where great things will happen. Perhaps
there might even be flying cars and other amazing advancements in technology.
And since we were little, we were looking forward to 2020, and hoping how our
lives would change for the better.
Unfortunately (or fortunately?), 2020 came and hit everyone right
in the face unlike what we have expected all this while. COVID 19 hit us so
hard and is still hitting us without giving anyone a proper answer on how to
overcome it and all the problems that came along.
We thought there would be flying cars to allow ease of
travelling and better means of transportation. Instead, even the aeroplanes
that were already flying for the past century are not able to operate and we
are still using the same modes of transportation, with less efficiency.
We thought that there would be better job opportunity and
more job scopes. But sadly, it’s the opposite. Small time resellers and big
companies relying on community marketing had to narrow down their business
approach, turn over a new leaf, and worst, shut down
We thought that the education system would improve with a
more practical approach and better interactions. Instead we are bound by video
calls and feeble internet connections to provide the basic education for the
future generations.
And personally, being the doctors of current generation, we expected there would be a solution to the nowadays doctors who are mistreated by society and also the ministry itself. They want us to pursue future studies. But they don’t allow us to do so as we are all now ‘contract’ workers working year to year basis. Our actions are very closely monitored and any action that doesn’t pleases the superiors ( such as petty complains from patients or non contract government workers ) will lead to termination. And during this covid pandemic, apparently all the contract doctors are the 80% frontliners as we are all ‘disposable’. The long term daily dose of COVID 19 management makes a dull mind and difficulty to maintain a standard practice and care that a doctor needs.
It’s a very sad and depressing times to every respective personnel regardless of their social status or income. And its not right to put a blame and start pointing fingers. So What do you do when you are unable to provide for your loved ones?? What happens to the future generations? Where is the just in the system? A year has gone by. And a hollow year it has been with no solutions.
But in the midst of all these piling mess, there is this one
beautiful feature of being human that stands out. And that part is what allows
us to be part of evolution. And that, is the ability to adapt.
We adapt and adjust accordingly to the new surrounding. The new harsh environment that teaches us to be better. And of course, everyone learns and adapt to different things, based on their surroundings. And this, is what ive learnt.
For starters, I was in a dilemma initially. After being
transferred from Perak to Selangor, I was placed in a district hospital that I
wasn’t expecting. Initially I was placing all my bets on a placement to the
hospital next to my house and thinking that I planned everything correctly. And
if everything goes according to plan, I could plan the next thing in life easily.
Little did I knew, it was 2020, the year where you can’t expect everything to
go according to your plan, and uncertainty will be certainly happening against
your favour.
I was placed in a district hospital where the distance is
the same if I drive home or I drive back to Ipoh. And by some chances, a few
friends who got the same place as I did, managed to go to other hospitals
nearer to their home.
That affected me in a way that I kept questioning, where is the silver lining in all of this?
And on my way home, driving through the long hour drive, I tuned up to this podcast of a person, who was not a figure well known by many, but the content that he elaborated are the things that I needed to hear at that current moment. Here are the top 3 lessons that I would like to share J
Everyone has a story to tell, and everyone has a lesson to share, we just have to listen. Of course you’d be expecting a lot of great things coming from a great person. But sometimes, greater things come from people you least expect.
2. 2. Be firm with what you want.
There are times where there are things that
we do because we thought it would be good because of what other people said it
is good, without them realising how difficult it is to achieve it. Like parents
might say ‘ hey be a doctor, be an engineer, its good for your future ‘ And then
there are those things that we cling on to because we are in dire need of
finding that sense of belonging through that achievement. Like how nowadays ‘flex’
culture is terribly affecting us. And with all this it made us wonder, why
nobody is asking us are we happy?
For that here’s a saying ive said before
that is self explanatory;
so when i see people who have had success,
i see boredom for the most part in them, and i see a tombstone. Circling back
to what trophies and it represent,
Usually when you get what you thought you wanted , The fire goes away. So if
there's anything, just find joy in what you do for the sake of it and then
recognize how you're being shaped in the process and hopefully youll become a
better man through it.
3. 3. Be at peace with what you want .
And then there are times, you get
frustrated along the way. You feel irritated and somehow angry doing things you
thought you liked.
Remember,
‘that
is the nature of love, it has a little bit of hate in it. And a little bit of
pain as well’
No
matter how frustrated you are, or how much you hated a certain thing / someone,
it still draws you back to it. And with that, you learn to appreciate more than
you hate.
And after listening to this podcast time and time again, I
realise theres more message that the speaker wished to enlighten to those who
understands the indirect message that he is trying to convey. And to counclude
all of this, and as I correlate the content to myself. I realised that all I
ever wished for, is to spread the goodness in whatever form I could. And this c
ould be achieved regardless of in which ever hospital I am. To those who knew
me ( and those who don’t ) I can assure you that I am not the best in all the
things I do. But it get easier and better, once I realise what is the greater
goal, the end goal, and how it helps me in being a better person.
So what is this greater goal? I guess we’ll have to take it
to another page of post. Most importantly after the repeated sessions of
listening to the same thing. Im being reminded to be thankful for what I have,
although the circumstances was as how I planned, it was exactly how Allah
wanted it to happen. And I couldn’t be happier knowing that somehow, if He
plans, then I should do my best with what I have now and leave the rest to Him.
So, to the lost and wondering souls and minds out there, i know you are struggling. dont worry, take a deep breath, and stop looking outside and beyond the horizon to find answers
for the ongoing difficulties, sometimes the answer is best within the notion of
looking inwards and self-reflect. I wish all of you who read up to this point, a
blessed year ahead with a stronger mind, and bolder hearts. Take care, be safe.
Hello 2021 :)
