being better for those that really matter.

the rocky parts of a trip, the rough edges that bothered at the end of a clear streamed paper, the tangled and twisted ties on a long rope.
life gets harder as more and more of them being added . and i have to admit,

at a point it was rough.

facing the demons and fears that hindered people from progressing.
some of them are in the form of a flesh
some are just the devastating mind games that bothered more than it should.
you pushed it aside, at least most of it. but some stayed like a stubborn stain. and will always be there till we confront it

to a point, you turn to a new leaf and say: instead of refraining, lets try casting it aside. and all these insecurities at a point will be a hindrance or obstacle instead of a permanent barrier.

and after all this while you wondered what went wrong. you also wondered what was the right thing to do..
how could things be better instead of getting yourself whorled into the abyss that sucks the joy and life out of you.

but then again, as we long for the search of something that couldve actually solve all of our problem,
we forgot what(read : who) was there that made us able to bear everything up to this point..

the people that were there before, will be there now, and then.

those we tried to keep alongside us but are not there when we thought they would will just be a shell of hopelessness of something we thought we needed, but serves nothing rather than a burden to keep. some demands to be kept, but rains the life out of you until the point you said to yourself, let it go, and let yourself heal from the unnecessary burden.

and at that point, you look to the opposite direction and see, how vast the lands were. how the grass is truly greener. and how stupid you were for not looking into that direction before. youre not looking into a new direction. youre just going the where you were once where. where people genuinely cared, where people made it easier instead of asking you to make things easier for them.

and for some reason, it saddens me that some of them will probably not be there in the future.
though certain deeds are given and taken, exchanged on a daily basis, some can only be repaid by whatever goodness God may provide, or you doing it to there people ( just dont be mistaken by doing it to the wrong people )

i believe in goodness keeps a warm heart and steady mind throughout difficulty, and i hope everyone (including me) will be able to give more than what we got. Hopefully with age, comes wisdom. and with wisdom, youll try to be better for the right people that matter..